i lie here
clutching
an idea
of how
i think
i should be
all the
good intentions
fade away
as the light
grasps
at my lids
i lie here
eyes closed
seeking escape
in dreams
where the deepest
corners
of my mind
reach out
in silent screams
the list
i made
last night
lies
abandoned
at my side
i tell myself
tomorrow
is as good
a day
as any
to start
being
the person
i hope
to be.